We haven't heard much from Selena Gomez since she cancelled her Revival tour to check into a treatment centre, but the 24-year-old star is feeling well enough to open up to her fans again in a candid interview with Vogue Magazine.
In the typically frank and emotional interview, #SelenaGomez chatted openly about the struggles of fame, panic attacks and how everyone — even international superstars like her — often feels like they aren't good enough.
Naturally, having 113 million eyes judging every picture you upload to Instagram can be a burden, especially when you are inevitably under pressure to use the channel for free promotion, and Selena described how addictive seeking the approval of others on social media can be:
“As soon as I became the most followed person on Instagram, I sort of freaked out. It had become so consuming to me. It’s what I woke up to and went to sleep to. I was an addict, and it felt like I was seeing things I didn’t want to see, like it was putting things in my head that I didn’t want to care about. I always end up feeling like shit when I look at Instagram. Which is why I’m kind of under the radar, ghosting it a bit.”
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Of course, walking around with a face as famous as Selena's on the daily is also immensely stressful and Selena admitted that often she wishes people would just forget she was ever famous at all:
“Look, I love what I do, and I’m aware of how lucky I am, but – how can I say this without sounding weird? I just really can’t wait for people to forget about me.”
Gomez also once again spoke about how feelings of low self worth and a descent into panic attacks forced her to call off her Revival tour for the sake of her own mental health and wellbeing:
“Tours are a really lonely place for me. My self-esteem was shot. I was depressed, anxious. I started to have panic attacks right before getting onstage, or right after leaving the stage. Basically I felt I wasn’t good enough. At concerts I used to make the entire crowd raise up their pinkies and make a pinky promise never to allow anybody to make them feel that they weren’t good enough.
Suddenly I have kids smoking and drinking at my shows, people in their 20s, 30s, and I’m looking into their eyes, and I don’t know what to say. I couldn’t say, ‘Everybody, let’s pinky-promise that you’re beautiful!’ It doesn’t work that way, and I know it because I’m dealing with the same shit they’re dealing with.”
If the feelings that Selena is describing sound familiar, the sage young star also has some words of wisdom for you. Namely, that it is okay to admit that you are not feeling like your best self and to seek help:
"DBT has completely changed my life. I wish more people would talk about therapy. We girls, we’re taught to be almost too resilient, to be strong and sexy and cool and laid-back, the girl who’s down. We also need to feel allowed to fall apart.”
There is no weakness in the strength it takes to make yourself vulnerable in order to improve as a person.
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